Clueless and Restless

Last few days have been very hectic. I have wrenched myself dry, but just could not manage to extract a few extra drops of time to key-in some thing. I was also not keeping well. I desperately wanted to catch up with some extra time of sleep, and never managed to do it. The more I planned, the more there were last minutes assignments. The result- reaching home after midnight. It seems to me that God has forgotten to assign some leisure minutes in my life. I am always racing against time...and always loosing. Perhaps, I just need to sit and do some introspection (Ok. Ok. It sounds familiar. I must have said this umpteen times.) But, the truth is that I badly need some time alone. Everything in life seems disoriented at the moment. Nor am I writing something, nor do I find time to indulge in some other hobby activities. I am just running aimlessly. Nothing worthy actually happening in life. I come to office in the morning and return back. I feel I like a preprogrammed machine that does a task without questioning or understanding the reason. I need to do something worthwhile. Things need to change in life big time. When & How? I am clueless at the moment.